Tuesday, April 1, 2014
I got a new vehicle. Okay, it wasn’t new. It was a used ’97 Ford Expedition. It had a story already with its dings and wear and tear.
No one else would probably have wanted that vehicle. It couldn’t have been more perfect for me. Used. Worn. Torn.
Judging from a distance, it looked perfect on the outside. Almost brand new. However, the closer you looked, you could see the wear and tear that had come with time.
The dings, the missing handle, the many, many miles.
The first thing a car buyer usually will ask is…how many miles does it have? Will it be able to run much longer?
Well this car had a lot of miles. But, I had decided miles were good!
As a Christian, I’ve done my best to paint a perfect picture of my not-so-perfect life.
Doing my best to hide my imperfections and dings of life.
I’d sell my perfect life to everyone I came in contact with each day. Hoping no one noticed how used, worn and torn I really was.
Hoping they didn’t notice I’ve come to a dead end in my Christian life.
I questioned if God would even be able to use me again.
I was so used, worn, and torn.
That was the lie Satan wanted me to believe. He had made me feel like a complete failure in all aspects of my life.
My marriage. My ministry. My job. My children.
God challenged me…Sarah, how long does a new car really stay new?
I drove with a new set of eyes. I observed the other vehicles around me. I began to notice all the dings and such of the other vehicles.
To my surprise, mine was not the only one with dings.
The enemy is a real piece of work. He wanted me to believe that I was no longer valuable to God or others.
That nobody wanted me.
That I was not good enough to be a child of God.
I had to ignore those lies. I looked to God’s Word for truth…and this is the truth.
But God shows his love for us in that while we were still sinners, Christ died for us.Romans 5:8
P.S. I had a lot of dings, and I still do. I just no longer let them define me. God loves me. He gave His son to die for me. I am His. He is mine. I am valuable. I am His daughter…sweet sister, know who you are.