To My Greatest Blessing,
The enemy really did a number on me these past few weeks or so. It started with fear.
He had me doubting my visions…our dreams. Next thing I know I was isolated, exhausted, and feeling depressed.
I was ready to quit.
My mama came to check on me yesterday. She knew her daughter was backed into a corner.
She saw my fridge—almost empty like me.
I hadn’t wanted to go grocery shopping. We always did that together. The first time I went without you I didn’t know what to get—flour, sugar, eggs, potatoes, bacon, onion or peppers.
You always did all the cooking.
I ended up just filling my basket with a bunch of over processed food—hot dogs, raviolis, and way too many boxes of cereal.
I’m sure that doesn’t surprise you.
It still humors me to think that at one point in our life that I thought you couldn’t cook.
Remember when God told me to start feeding you meals three times a day?
I thought you were the luckiest guy in the world to have my cooking. Especially my meatloaf.
Come to find out it was just a door He opened so you could feed me.
I was the lucky one.
Spaghetti. That was the first meal I fed you…do you remember that?
I’m just thinking about your homemade spaghetti and the time and work you’d put into your cooking from scratch compared to mine—always quick, easy, and out of the box.
It reminds me of us and our future.
God is preparing something out of scratch for us. He’s taking His time, it’s definitely been hard, and I’m believing it’s going to be worth it.
O taste and see that the Lord is good: blessed is the man that trusteth in him.
Psalms 34:8 KJV
I’ve always heard this verse, but today I understand it.
You can taste…not just see if you trust Him.
I’m trusting Him.
God spoke to me today in that small quiet voice just like He did with Elijah when the enemy had him cornered. He spoke through a song.
Today Rachael and Roy played the song Why Me. All I could do was cry.
Roy asked if I wanted him to turn it off. They didn’t know this was your song…and I had forgotten about it until today.
Do you remember telling me this was your song when we first met?
Through that song God showed me I was wrong. I thought you were struggling with pride…but it was quite the opposite.
Maybe Lord, I can show someone else what I’ve been through myself on my way back to you.
I’m that someone.
I know it’s been a long journey back, but your so close.
Don’t give up.
But mostly don’t be afraid to open your heart fully…you’re loved and not just by me.
I love you with all my heart,
Sarah Elizabeth Morgan
PS…I’m so thankful you took the time not just to feed me physically but spiritually too.
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