I just had a weekend of experiencing ALL of God – God the Father, God the Son, and God the Holy Spirit.
I’ve been wrestling with God over my calling, His plan, and His will for my life.
Saturday I would surrender all of me. My fears, my doubts, my pride, my insecurities, my control, my religion…all the opposition that has been standing between me and God.
Jesus answered and said unto them, Destroy this temple, and in three days I will raise it up.
God led me to read this chapter. As I read it, I could hear him say…you want to see me turn this water into wine? Then you are going to have obey and let me cleanse your temple.
So there I kneeled on the floor. Hands open. God began to tear down the temple I had built up. Walls began to crumble. I was finally ready for a new beginning. I was ready to be baptized in the Spirit…with fire.
A life where Holy Spirit fills me, empowers me, and leads me.
Baptize me, Jesus.
Sunday would be the true test. God has been telling for some time I was to have church with my husband. I was to attend with him on the ridge of our property, but I had yet to obey because it didn’t look how I thought is should look.
There was no building.
Sunday morning I woke up, and for the first time I had church how the Holy Spirit led me.
I started with a walk with God around our property. I worshiped Him in song and praise with each step. He spoke to me the entire time…giving me visions and prayers to pray over others.
After my walk, I was ready to be baptized in the Spirit by my husband. This is something else God had been telling me to do, but I put it off due to my fear of getting in the tank full of snakes and who knows what else.
Oddly, my husband told me to put on my wedding dress, so I did. We loaded up in the pickup truck and headed to the back tank.
Here I was standing before this dirty tank. I couldn’t see the bottom, yet I boldly walked in holding my husband’s hand.
Despite being autumn, I wasn’t cold when I entered the water.
My husband spoke this most beautiful prayer over me. He gave me back to the Lord, and then baptized me.
I then knew why he had me wear my wedding dress.
We made our way out of the water and I was amazed at the warmth I felt. My husband took the towel from me and wiped the mud from my feet.
He washed my feet. In that moment, I knew God had so much more for me than I was allowing.
From there we drove to chapel, the ridge on our property where we have a circle of hay bales. This is the place my husband has been seeking God for many years. Way before he met me.
We set on our hay bale hand in hand – one in Christ. Together we said the Lord’s Prayer and then my husband went on to pray to our Father. There were tears. There were petitions. There was repentance. There was the sweet presence of the Holy Spirit as my husband read the word to me. There was renewal in me as I read Psalm 51 to my husband.
Create in me a clean heart, O God; and renew a right Spirit within me. Cast me not away from thy presence; and take not the Holy Spirit from me. Restore unto me the joy of thy salvation; and uphold me with thy free spirit.
I began to sing this chorus so freely. This is what God wanted for me. A clean heart…to be filled with His Spirit.
He wanted to set me free. AND He wants to set you free.
Obedience leads to freedom…and a fire that burns for Him.
Not every one that saith unto me, Lord, Lord shall enter into the kingdom of heaven; but he that doeth the will of my Father which is in Heaven.
What is God calling you to do today? Do it.