I’m sitting here in my family room sobbing right now. I am frustrated at my inability to write; to figure out what God is telling me, and I just keep asking, “What?! What do you want from me? What are you expecting of me? What do I need to do that I haven’t already done a thousand times before?”
The thought of my upcoming interview for a part-time job goes rambling through my mind. I feel myself getting uncomfortable and resisting the idea of working. I told God that I LIKE that I am home for my family! It’s familiar and it’s comfortable. And then I hear, “Let go.”
Another thought comes to my mind of someone I deeply love, who’s in such a hard place right now and has been for a while, and there’s no end in sight. The sobs come harder and faster as once again I ask, “What do you want me to do?! I’m just so incredibly sad for them and the current situation!” Again I hear, “Let go.”
Still, more thoughts come rolling through about a calling I thought God gave me that is now 16 years since originally given. I find myself questioning whether I was even right, to begin with. If I was, wondering what happened that it still hasn’t come to pass. The tears come fast and hard again followed by “Let go.”
Let go of WHAT???
Circumstances, people, purpose or calling…these, and so many other things, as women, weigh us down. Fear keeps us from being transparent or real about what’s really going in our lives. Pride keeps us from asking for help when we really need the support of others. Our own poor choices keep us in bondage, bringing shame and guilt that forces us to remain quiet. And all the while, the Father of Lies, sits back and just smiles because he’s got us exactly where he wants us: stressed, depressed, hopeless, joyless, surviving, and thinking that this is all there is to this life. And we fall…hard.
And THAT is where God steps in and asks the final question:
“Are you ready to let go NOW? You were never meant to do this life alone. I never told you to carry that person’s burden by yourself. I never told you to remain in what’s comfortable. Stop holding so tightly to what you can see in front of you and start letting go so I can help you to RISE- Revival IS Eminent.”
You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all of your heart.
I know God is wanting me to seek after HIM above all else. He wants to know if I am willing to sacrifice what is most precious to me – time, people, finances, or position in my heart, to show that I love God MORE than any of those things. God wants to know if I’m willing to be broken so that HE can help me RISE out of the ashes and into a life that is filled with hope, joy, peace, and puts me in the position to thrive, not just survive!
What do you need to let go of today? It’s not going to be easy. It’s difficult to let go of what we deeply love…but I believe God is calling you and me to a love so deep that it pales in comparison to what we are holding so tightly to in this moment.
Join me and together we will: Let Go and RISE!